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I'm interracial. I'm gay. But most important of all, I'm gay as in I identify as gay, straight as in I'm not straight, bisexual, or gay. I do it for myself, not because people are interested. I don't have a big problem with gay people in general, but I think it's interesting to be seen as gay and not straight. I don't think most people understand that when you're gay, your sexuality is a very important part of who you are. There's a big difference between being gay and being straight.
No, not really. I grew up in the South and in Mississippi, and when I moved to California, I was told gay men singles I looked different, because I was from the south. So that's why I look different.
I can get nervous about that all the time. But then I don't do that as gay chat rooms often as I'd like to, because I'm pretty sure that I'm not gay. I'm not going to tell you that there's not going to be a time in the next ten years when I go back to Mississippi , where I was raised, and I'll be scared that somebody is going to say, "I'm not sure you look as good as this guy." Because that's what I did for so long, and I still do that sometimes. But you know what? When they're on the other side of the world, I think they can see what I'm seeing and not be scared or put off or any other nonsense. It's a lot more fun. So yeah, I know when people have different skin tones and that stuff, but I don't do that in the same way that I would have a different skin color.
Is that because I'm just trying to find guys to date or because I'm looking for something that I can have sex with? No, it's just that I don't want to have sex with anyone who isn't white. So if I go to a bar or a club, I'm going to ask, "How are you? Are you white?" And if they're like, "Yes, that's me," that's a good start. If they say, "No, that's not me," then I can go on to the next question. But if they say, "Yes, that's me," I'll be really curious and maybe I'll ask something. That's fine. But you know what? When I first moved online gay chat to New York, I was like, "How can I find guys who don't care about their skin color?" You mean like, are you going to put your skin in the water? Oh, it's a thing that I would do. I wouldn't say that to meet gay guys online you now, but I would say it to you after we had sex. But I don't think I would. Well, I would, yes. I'd be like, "Hey, I really like this skin color. I want to see you like that more , because I think it's cool." And I didn't do it with every single guy I dated, but, you know what? If we had a conversation about how I was feeling about my skin color after I'd had sex, it probably would have been like, "You know what? I think my skin looks awesome, but I have a problem with my hair." Oh my god, no, that's what I'd say! I would just get mad at you for not being my type. And so you can imagine my confusion when, a couple weeks later, the same guy we'd been dating was like, "Hey, I'm really attracted to you and I think you're really cool and I'm excited to spend the rest of my life with you. Would you be open to a date?" I was like, "Oh, you mean date me?" And he was like, "Yeah. I'm totally into it. I think it'd be pretty cool." And I was like, "I know, I love you. I'm just really excited to see you more, because I'm a lesbian, and it's so cool to know someone is interested in me."
And I really did love that guy, but, it was just such a shock to see him go through that same process with me. So, when we started dating, I wanted to tell him how it felt. I was nervous, but I told him, and I thought it was pretty cute that he felt the same way. I mean, he was just so sweet. He was like, "I feel the same way. But you know, I don't know how I can let you go for me." So, we went through this process of going through all this crap, and I was thinking, "If this is the way you want to be with someone, then I have to do it!" So, I was going through the same process, and he's like, "It's okay. It doesn't have to be perfect. You can let it go if you want to." And then that's when I knew. That's when I just had a little heart attack. I was like, "Oh, no, not again. This is not what we're doing here."
And then he went, "No, it's OK, man. It's okay. You just have to do this." The next day, I walked into the office and he was gone. I tried to tell everyone, "Hey, he just left!" I felt like I was crying. I went home. It was weird because I don't know gay dating sites online how many hours gay men sites it's been since I last had sex with him. I've always been super-horny but I don't think I've ever been in meeting gay guys online a committed relationship, even with my ex-wife. We're still together but we haven't had sex in, like, two years. He's a very handsome, attractive guy but he's never really been a serious or consistent guy. My husband and I have always dated other people. This was the first time we'd really kissed and I was nervous about how it would go. I've been with my partner for almost four years and we'd always been on the same page when it comes to everything. "When did you last have sex with anyone?" I asked. "It was a few years ago but I guess I never really felt comfortable enough with my body to go down on someone else, to show my body in a sexual way." "Well, that's okay," I said. "You're still pretty and pretty is very sexy. What's the matter?" "I'm really afraid to show my body." I thought that was the end of the story and I didn't feel bad about it. I knew that if we were going to have sex, I should probably be able to do it without feeling embarrassed or worried that I wouldn't be good enough. But then I started thinking about how much I've learned. "I've learned that when I'm nervous, I'm more likely to give up. That's the power of nervousness.